My name is Trevor McNamee and 62 yrs old at time of writing.
I was born to Godly parents Nancy and Peter McNamee,in Mt.Gambier South Australia….photos Of my Father,3 weeks before He went to be with the Lord.And my Mother after Her 2 stroke,She went to be with the Lord upon Her 3 rd stroke.Both Faithfully prayed for me through all their lives.
My Father came to the Lord through a Billy Graham 1959 crusade in Melbourne,Victoria,Australia
6 mths later My Mother was Born Again,She was Presbyterian,who thought Dad was nuts,When He came to the Lord He was Catholic,but not a church goer.
All through my childhood and early teenage years,after evening meal and we had bible study and prayers before we went to bed.My mother held Christian Endeavour every week after school.I said a prayer and got a card,to say I was saved,I was 9 yrs old.Still got the card in my first bible,somewhere.We attended Mt Gambier Baptist and have fond memories of Ps Joe Westlake and I attended the Youth group which was lead by Gina Stone.
We also went to Saturday night fellowships in various Farmers homes and Keswick conventions just over the border in Heywood Victoria.It was at one of the Saturday night meeting,We had a pastor,Don Bone,who my parents knew speak,He had answered the call of God to minister to Aboriginal people in Western Australia.And was calling for workers at Roelands Mission Western Australia.My parents believed God was speaking to them and so an adventure started travelling across Australia to Roelands Mission about 25 kms from Bunbury,A working Farm.With about 100 Aboriginal kids(Known these days as the Stolen Generation,due to forced removal by the Govt and placed in the care of many Missions set up around the country.Of which was one.I was 15 when we got there Christmas 1972 and 17 Christmas 73 when we left to go back to Adelaide South Australia.
I have fond memories of listening to various Missionaries,bought to the Keswick Conventions and hearing of people like Richard Wurmbandt Read about Him here https://amzn.to/2T5Nqzy,Brother Andrew,Gods Smuggler,Read about here https://amzn.to/2WcIbAcHaralan Popov,His Story of 13 yrs torture here https://amzn.to/2sIwKm5 and many others .My Parents also supported Missionary Shirley Barbie,who was in Dahomey West Africa,now know as Benin and many others as the Lord led them.
I started going into Bunbury Baptist church with friends on Friday night and Sunday nights.Consequencently a Easter weekend Youth Camp in 1971,where on Saterday night our Pastor Rob Taylor was preaching the Gospel and the need for people to be saved,Born Again.I was so convicted I left the meeting before the end and went to a prayer room,where I heard 2 of My friends praying for me to be saved.I just said it’s ok Gary and Glenn,I’m here,and Repented of my sins and trusted Christ as my Saviour.I was born Again that night.About 8.30 pm Easter Saturday night 1973.I started praying and telling my girlfriend (an Aboriginal young women,called a Noongar a clan of Aboriginal people in SW Western Australia) at the time.
Christmas 73, I went to another Baptist camp and on the Sunday night while listening to the pastor,A Aboriginal women interrupted the Pastor and said sorry pastor I’ve just got to tell you all,P…….gave her heart the Lord just now.Unbeknown to me,When I got back home from the camp.my Parents had said we are going back to S.Aust.You see one day about 4 months before Christmas,73 I got frustrated with God because P……hadn’t gotten saved yet.God gave me a promise that she would be saved.I got a bit of flack from the Elders when I prayed aprayer.”Thank you Father that P is going to be saved”.Saying We dont know,when or if someone gets saved.I ignored what He said and believed,what I prayed,believing that God had led Me to pray that way.Any way as I said I was frustrated with God.I opened my Bible up and put my finger on a verse and it landed on, Is 59:1 Behold the LORD’S hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear.I couldn’t believe it,and I realised,I may never personally see P…….; be saved……….yet 4 months later she was Saved.What a blessing God was to me in that.
So going back to Adelaide S,Aust
Dad started a 2 yr bible study coarse at the Adelaide Bible Institute.(A.B.I.)Victor Harbor,Sth. Aust.I got my first job in a bake house.Then I got a letter from a employer I had applied for a apprenticeship with while in the last year of High School.at Bunbury Senior H.S.W.Aust but I was now in St Aust.I rang the People in W.Aust., trying to get the position transfrred to S.Aust. they wouldn’t do it.So after discussing with my parents set of at 17 2700 kms (1700 miles) in my little Nissan Prince,my first car,of many,many more.back to W.Aust to start my training as a Telecommunications Technician.
While doing the training,I attended Wembley Downs Baptist Church,where my previous pastor from Bunbury Rob Taylor was now and taught Sunday School.to members kids.Also went to some meetings held by the Aboriginal Evangelical Society,It was here,that God called me to work with the Aboriginal people of Australia.Hooked up with Ronnie Williams a Aboriginal Evangelist,Later with Ps Ben Mason an Aboriginal Evangelist from Alice Springs and Ps Bob Brown from Wagga Wagga in New South Wales.Did evangelist meetings with Ps.Bob at Umeewarra Mission Pt Augusta S.Aust,and teaching ministry trips to Wagga Wagga And other meetings.At this time I was back in Adelaide,Married and attending Prospect Baptist church which Ps. Paul Hoogenraad And Ps Les Crawford as Pastors.
I was now back in Adelaide,working in Data Services a group of Telecomunication people who set up Data services,before the big WWW,came along.Eventually doing a Teaching course on Course creation and delivery and presentation,Resulting in my becoming a Systems trainer to the Telecom Aust.Looking after systems training in S.Aust. and Norhern Territory,from sales courses to telephone exchanges and everything associated with the delivery of a Data service by Telecom to a customer……as Snr Training Officer.It was this training that set me up with ability to preach and teach when preaching and teaching bible studies based on the principle of what people need to know.ie.Must Know,Should Know,Could Know.
Moved down to Port Willunga,Sth Aust. where there was no Baptist church,at the time,so We attended Pt Willunga AOG.Where eventually,became an Elder.With Ps Bruce and Rhonda Walters And later when Ps Trevor and Valmai Auricht came.Was preaching once a month and holding Bible studies in my own home,and at invitations to others.God used my training as a Snr Training Officer with Telecom,tremendously,
My main subject was Grace,especially Romans, Ephesians and Colossians.And while the AOG believed salvation could be lost,The Pastors and other Elder had no problems,with me teaching Eternal Security..However,when I was offered Pastors credentials,I declined the offer because I would then have to hold to and teach/preach the lose Salvation position.
After about 3 or 4 yrs,I left Telecom and become a Electrician,wiring new houses,eventually starting my own company.Consequently moved back to Adelaide.Attended Ridgehaven AOG,with Ps Peter Rogers(did a mission trip to Thailand and ministered in the slums of Bangkok,And was absolutely heart broken at a mission that rescues child prostitutes,some as young as 9 yrs old.) and then Ps Ben Callender.Where I preached when asked and held bible studies I was very busy with my business And was not as diligent as I should have been with church attendance as I should have been.One day the Pastor and Wife came to my home I answered the door,they didn’t come in,just announced I could no longer,preach and teach, because of my poor attendance.They left,I shut the door and vowed never to set my foot inside a church again.And I didn’t for 12 yrs.Except for funerals and weddings.Even then I was reluctant to go inside.
My business became very successful, I was working up to 100 hrs per week.I had up to 12 people working for me was turning over $ 1M+. a year and living it up.Investment properties,etc,etc.I was on journey of backsliding for the next 12 yrs.
I left my wife and 3 kids,moved to a townhouse 5 minutes from my workshop and office.One day in 2009,I went to work as usual at 5:30 am,to get things ready for when my staff turned up at 7:30.They came,I sent them of to work and then slumped my head on my desk and sobbed my heart out.I locked up,got home,opened my car doar and literally fell out onto the concrete floor and as far as I can tell sobbed for about 3 hrs.I got up,rang my Parents,and said Mum,I think I had a breakdown.They came around,prayed with me ,tried to help me and eventually,went to a phyciatrist,who diagnosed me with Major Depression and Anxiety,as a result of a complete nervous breakdown.Which left me so debilitated,physically,mentally and spiritually.
I increased ny drinking to everyday,,bottle of scotch or a couple of bottles of wine every day…..Then my first suicide attempt,1 of 6 attempts,which on 1 occasion my daughter told me only a couple of years ago,I flat lined 3 times in emergency.
I moved back to Western Australia and lived in a caravan and annexe,drinking heavily,feeling absolutely helpless,hopeless,lonely but hated company,Here I attempted suicide 4 of the 6 times.Every time ending up in ECU,and physcatric hospitals,where over a coupe of years I was given about 22 Electro-convolsive Therapy Treatments,(ECT)which affected my short term memory,As you can see,I remember details previous to my breakdown,since then a lot of things are blurred and vague.And much of what I remeber since the breakdown,Is what I have been told by my daughter and friends.eg,One time we,friend and 2 young kids were driving over a bridge.Just below is a restraunt,Friend said,Unlce and I have been there.I looked and said,Ive never ever been there.Friend replied,Yes you have when your sister and husband came over, We went there.I then said,when did the come over?To this day,I cross that bridge everyday,I look down and connot remeber ever going there,nor my sister and brother coming over.
I was driving back to Adelaide every year.On one visit,My youngest daughter said,Dad,God has kept you alive,Despite your efforts,to kill yourself,He has a purpose for you still.I dismissed it.for a few yrs.
Rm 11:29 For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.
Then the hound dog of heaven,The Holy Spirit,started to renew,my interest in the things of God.Started watching,YouTube videos of preaching.Until I came across a series of videos,where the Pastor spoke of 4 ways we blame others for our own failings,or we use others as the purpose of pleasing God….AND, I was convicted so much by God,On exactly what I had done.
1.Pride of my ministry……pride comes before the fall.Prov 16:18
- I blamed my wife,whom had divorced me 7 yrs before hand.I had hurt her so much,even tho she forgave me ,of what I had done.Dallas,if you ever read this,I am so,so sorry,for what I did,for the hurt I caused you and our kids
- I used my kids and hurt them so,so,so much,when I left my wife
4. My business,had taken up my life,I use to FIGJAM my self every day.F I’m good Just ask me.
I had lost everything,my wealth,my wife,my relationship with my kids and grand kids,My physical health,my mental health and more importantly my spiritual health.
I was devestated before God,in repentance,naming and repenting over a number of hours as the Holy Spirit revealed all that I had done.
Then I remembered,despise not the chastening of the Lord,
Proverbs 3:11 My son, despise not the chastening of the LORD; neither be weary of his correction:
Pro 3:12 For whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he
Hebrews 12:3 For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds.
Heb 12:4 Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin.
Heb 12:5 And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:
Heb 12:6 For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.
Heb 12:7 If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?
Heb 12:8 But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.
Heb 12:9 Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live?
Heb 12:10 For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.
Heb 12:11 Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.
Heb 12:12 Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees;
Heb 12:13 And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed.
The Father in the Prodigal Son, Luke 15:11-32 Who watched out every day for his son to return,Whose other son complained when His father threw a a party.
The Father that never stops being our Heavenly Father.The shepherd,who leaves the flock and goes and rescues a wandering sheep.Luke 15:1-7
A God who remains faithful,when we are unfaithful. 2 Timothy 2:13 if we are faithless, he remains faithful—for he cannot deny himself
Who never gives up on us.Even when all around us people leave you alone.
See here for more on the The Chastening of the Lord
The first thing I noticed was my foul,blue language just stopped.My filthy mind and jokes stopped.I had stopped drinking about 3 yrs before hand.The Joy of my Salvation returned,The peaceable fruits of righteousness,became my experience and delighting in the word of God.I rang my youngest daughter and said I was so,so sorry for the hurt,I had caused Her,her husband and 4 children on the phone,She said Dad,God still got a purpose for you,I told you that a couple of years ago.
My son came over 6 mths ago on business and out of the blue rang me and said let go for lunch,couldn’t believe it,I had hurt Him so so much.We talked over a meal and as we finished I said Son,I’m so,so sorry,We both teared up,we went out side to our cars we hugged and He said Dad,I forgive you.Still got to speak to my oldest daughter who is in America,with husband and 2 grand kids.
I bought a bible and now read it everyday and one day and watch videos of good teaching and preaching.Then I read forsake not the assembling together.Heb 10:25 I searched for evening services,attended a AOG,nope,not for me.Then I found an Old church,I had some association with back when I was doing my apprenticeship.Claremont Baptist Chruch.Found out 6 mths before hand they had discided to commence 5pm services.I discided to go,It was easy driving the 1 1/4 hrs there,the hardest part was walking from the car to the entrance.I took a breathe and stepped inside the entrance and I knew I was Home,The first time I had stepped inside a church for nearly 12 yrs.The Pastor greeted me Ps Warwick,what a blessing this man of God is.
Finally I just want to say,4 things
1. If you are a Born Again Christian but have back slidden,no matter where you are.God has not given up on you.God has not forsaken you.
But be WARNED,God will not let you get away with your sins,you can and will reap the consequences of your sin in this lifetime, eg,break the law of the land,expect consequences,unmarried sex,expect possible disease,unwanted pregnancies,,just to name 2.
3. He can and does what He needs to do,so that you return to Him,in repentance.Even taking you out of this world prematurely.
4. So I would encourage you to turn back to God,admit and repent of your backsliding and sin,your bringing Gods name into disrepute,due to your own disobedience.It is a serious thing to fall into the Hands of God.Yet if you return,It will bring about the peaceable fruits of righteousness to you.
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I write this testimony on 8th January 2019